Sweet Surrender – Day 4
January 04, 2018
“How are you today,” the young man behind the counter at the fast-food chicken shack asked.
“Not good,” I said.
“What’s the matter?” he said.
I didn’t know what the matter was. Later I would see that I had spent the last week caught in that nasty vortex of self-will, trying to figure something out, plow ahead, and ram through that wall. I wasn’t trying to control anything that big, but the battle had grown to monstrous proportions. How could I tell this young man that I was suffering from battle fatigue when I wasn’t even aware of it myself?
“I’m just a little out of it,” I said.
What I was out of was that gentle place called God’s Will. What I wasn’t out of yet was myself.
He handed me my chicken.
“I hope you’re on your way home,” he said.
I was. I surrendered that night.
Inventory Focus: Have you had any past experiences with surrender? How has that worked for you? Are you struggling with an issue right now and losing? Is there a person, place, or thing in your life that you’re trying to control? How’s that working for you? Like the young man said to me, I hope you’re on your way home.
From the book: 52 Weeks of Conscious Contact
About the author
In addiction and recovery circles, Melody Beattie is a household name. She is the best-selling author of numerous books.
One of Melody's more recent titles is The Grief Club, which was published in 2006. This inspirational book gives the reader an inside look at the miraculous phenomenon that occurs after loss--the being welcomed into a new "club" of sorts, a circle of people who have lived through similar grief and pain, whether it be the loss of a child, a spouse, a career, or even one's youth.